James and I on our way toVegas

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Pregnant or Not Pregnant that is the question??


So, of course, I could not wait until the day of the blood test to find out if I was pregnant ( which was actually, Monday). I tested on Friday October 5, 2012. I figured I would test and if it is positive I then "know" and if it is negative then it could be to early since it was only 7 days after the 5 day transfer. I did not wake up in the morning and test, I woke up with every intention of waiting until Sunday, the day before the blood test. I did not have to work on Friday and so I was home cleaning and doing laundry and using my own bathroom. Every time I would go pee I would open my cabinet and see the home pregnancy tests staring at me, begging me to pee on them. I still refrained, mainly out of fear of seeing a negative. Then Lauren called and I brought it up to her and she said "go and test, I would have already tested by now if I were you."  She was really good at convincing me that if it comes up negative it is probably to early. So, I gave in and tested. I was so nervous that I didn't even get off the toilet and set it on the counter while washing up like most people. I just sat there elbows on my knees holding a small piece of plastic that within a minute was going to effect  my mood for the rest of the day. I have pee'd on so many of these at least 150 if not more in the last 5 years of trying and 99% of the time it has always been negative, even after staring at it for 10 straight minutes in hopes to maybe see some faint line. This time, however, was different as soon as I saw the liquid go across the little window of the test I see the "control line" show up and within seconds the pregnancy line shows up! I was in disbelief and started crying and pacing the house. At that moment I wish I would have waited until James was home because here I was so excited and nervous and crying with excitement and didn't have anyone to tell. Yes, I did think of calling Lauren back immediately but did not as I knew the first person should be my husband.
Was in disbelief but there are 2 lines!
I called James and asked him to come home before his next class. He asked why and I told him that I needed his help to move something because I was getting the house ready to have friends over that evening for poker. He still asked if it could just wait until after class. So, I said I had also bought him a small gift and wanted to give it to him. He immediately, asked why I was acting so strange I said if you want to find out then come home. He, honestly, did not have a clue. Once I knew he was on his way  home I ran downstairs and grabbed some red tissue paper and a white bow. I wrapped the pregnancy test as his "gift". When he got home I gave it to him and he was so excited. We both got teary eyed and realized our dream might be actually coming true. After our moment of excitement we both did say to each-other that it is very early and we have been at this stage before. Now we have to wait for the blood test to find out our hcg beta count. We, also, decided that we were not going to announce anything until Friday the 12th after we had received three beta counts since I had never announced when the actual blood test day was, or so I thought. (I did not realize until today, when I started getting about 20 text messages, and checked my blog that I had said I would find out today. So, I figured I owed it to all of my loyal readers and people who have supported us to share the news when I said I would).

On Saturday when I woke up I tested again ( after all, I did buy a 3 pack) to make sure it was real and did not go away. It didn't, there it was even darker. Sunday morning I tested again and again it was a darker line!
As you can see the line gets darker!
On Monday morning I went to the lab for my blood test and patiently waited all day for the Dr. to call me with my numbers. At noon, Dr. Montville himself called me to tell me I AM PREGNANT! and my numbers were 222 (they wanted anything above 100) he said the numbers were great. I went back today to find out if my numbers went up they wanted the numbers to increase by 55-65%. When Zoey (my nurse) called she said my number were 447! My numbers more than doubled!! and I have now reached a number I never have before. My previous pregnancies I started with low numbers my first pregnancy I tested and it was 48 two days later it was 114 then 167, 290, 314, then 38 ( lost it). So, as you can see I never had strong numbers so we are so excited that I started out with such strong numbers and that they doubled. I asked Zoey if I go in and test on Friday and she said NO! I asked "Why, don't you what to make sure they double again" she said no they will and my numbers are perfect and I should not worry about anything and if I start spotting or bleeding then we know something is wrong which there is nothing you can do about. She said that my ultrasound is scheduled for when I am 7 weeks pregnant which would be October 28th which is a Sunday so she said she would schedule it Friday, October, 26, 2012, I will be 6 weeks and 5 days and said it was fine and that way I would not have to wait another weekend without hearing something. We will get to hear the heart beat and see our little "blast". 

She said she would ask Dr. Montville if I could have one more blood test since I was wanting one. When she called me back she left a voice mail stating that Dr. Montville said that it is a waste of money since the test is about $140.00 and everything will be fine my numbers are perfect but if I really want one to call them back and they will fax one to the lab for me. I am thinking I will have one. I know it is expensive but can you really put a price on your piece of mind? what do you think? So, here is to more waiting! This pregnancy is baby steps.. Fist step was get past the blood tests. Next step, is to hear the heart beat, followed by making it to the second trimester. We still need all the positive support of our friends and family and positive energy sent our way. I do feel good about it this time. I am very tired and everything smells bad to me and I pee a lot but other that that I feel good, just nervous. 
So excited!
We also found out on Tuesday last week that all 5 of our embryos made it to be frozen and we received confirmation that they made it safe and sound to Florida!

Thank you so much again for all of your love, support and positive energy, please keep it up!

MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN OUR FAVOR!